I went to bed last night not feeling great. Tired and feeling as if I did something or rather did not do something to deserve the silent treatment from my husband. Our family is grieving right now. He says his grief process has passed and I know deep inside he is lying. Lying to save face or even to be strong for those who need his strength. I can not say he is without strengths but I think that he draws his strength from the wrong place and in turn what ever he puts out just paves a road of destruction.
In part my own selfish needs want to say I need you, you are suppose to be there for me. but I know that it is my turn to be there for him. How do you that when you are hurt from the emotional abuse you get from your spouse? For me right now it is just this write about it and think " What is my Purpose Driven Life?"
I have to set a few goals for myself in order to see today as a new day and not a bitter reminder of yesterday and with that said I am going to accept that my Purpose here in life is to LOVE and that is it. There is no other higher purpose for us as people in this world other than love. So to my husband who is grieving right now I know you will probably not read this, but I love you and that being said we will get through this.
Today is a new day and I going to Love today. In Loving Memory of Minnie "MJ" Downing. You are missed dearly, I love You, We all Love You.
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| I LOVE YOU MINNIE |